Goodbye, blogdrive.
I am having a hard time editing my templates here.
Updates don't come out in time.
Bye. I had a fun time here for a year and a half.

My new home is here: katherlynz.blogspot.com

Please change my link. Thanks people.

When I say it's over, I mean it.
Reflecting over these "unacceptable" changes is over.
I can't understand why they did that
but again, it all goes back to the same point that everybody changes.
WHILE I AM IN FULL KNOWLEDGE OF THAT,
I think I should know better for myself.

I LOVE LIFE.

I AM ERASING LIFE's NEGATIVITIES FROM NOW ON.
[I promise to dwell in it for a while, but soon leave it all behind, assuring myself that I am using it for a better purpose.]

'Nuff of the drama.
A good summer vacay awaits me.
AHAHAHA.

Btw, RIP to four inches of my hair-- they are now somewhere I don't know... maybe turned into a wig? Haha. Yes, a new haircut I allowed myself to carry and I might keep it-- even the new bangs. IRONY IRONY IRONY

I am marking my calendar. Beginning April 9, I will leave the metro and rush to BAGUIO COUNTRY CLUB. Tangina (excuse me for using that) excited talaga ako! Wahaha. As I incessantly blog, I need a major break from the hustle and bustle of the metro (because it always equates to work), and whether I go to Hollywood or the Babuyan Islands (well, I think not really Babuyan Islands.. hehe), I will really really appreciate it. Ahahaha.

As for now, I will not be blogging much. My life has been so dull lately. Just check out my multiply as I update that more nowadays. Click the third image on your left and see the link that leads to my multiply.

I was talking with Ana yesterday over the phone and started to reminisce- it was like the old days. She'd call in the afternoon, after classes, and talk for the longest time imaginable. Soon enough, telephone conversations weren't much of an "in-thing" and we relied on exchanging SMS and/or calling with a cellphone. We were talking about all sorts of stuffs yesterday, until she told me one point of view that I never imagined would ever come out of her mouth (not that Ana is stupid not to reflect about life instances BUT between the two of us, I guess I'm more analytical-slash-reflective):

Kath: So, ano na nga nangyari dun sa party ni Miko?
Ana: Ayun, naninigarilyo na silang lahat. Si *toot* nang-iiwan. Si *toot* ang lakas uminom, ladidadidah
Kath: Ohhh... so THE changes are big, huh?
Ana: Onga eh... si *toot* grabe ang lakas mag-yosi ah... si....
Kath: Hmm... Grabe bakit nagbabago mga tao?
Ana: Alam mo ang weird nga eh, kasi sobrang ibang iba sila noon. Actually, kapag ikukumpara mo, ibang-iba yung highschool friends natin sa blockmates natin ngayon.
Kath: Hmmm... onga noh?
Ana: Eto pa, ang weird, pano natin nakakasundo ang both groups when they are extremely different? How do we get ourselves to fit in comfortably?

Hmm.. I never thought of that before. But really, how did I fit in well? I don't really know what the answer to that question is, but sometimes, it's better if we leave it at that and enjoy the moments that pass by with the people we enjoy spending our time with.

I am starting to get stressed by boredom-- yes, you read that right: STRESSED, with a capital S! However, I still feel that I need this almost four week break from school so I better make best use of it. I really want to take summer classes now! I'm thinking of advancing some subjects because I can't imagine myself stuck at home when I can "enjoy" (what an appropriate(?) word to use) at most, a month of my summer with friends in the Ateneo. Ayiyiyi. Life oh life.

I have nothing to do the entire day today-- no appointments (haha), no gimiks, no anything so I ended up lying in my bed (one thing that I hardly get to do back when I was in the middle of the KILLER SEM) and look around my messy room. Nothing really changed except that my study table is soooo... sooo full of papers and what not:

EEEEEEEK! WHATTA TABLE?! I promised myself last week to clean this messy table by today. Well, until now, I don't want to move a limb and exert some effort to clean the mess. I have this weird clean-up system wherein I end up throwing everything (important or not) when forced to clean and end up throwing nothing (important or not, still) when I am in the mood for some general cleaning. Hmmm... so what's the better mood? You tell me.

On Friday is Pepay's (highschool friend) debut. Yihee. The debuts of my friends are finally on a roll. 1988 babies now take center stage... ahahaha. AND IF I MAY NOT FORGET, I AM ONE OF THEM! *teardrop* Can I not be a 17 year old girl all my life? (Hmm... I said that when I was to turn 17, only I wished I was 16 all my life..hehe) I still have no concrete plans for my debut, but I definitely am not considering the traditional ball-party type of thing-- this is 2006, I better make it a REAL partay! AHAHA.

What a lame blog/read this is. Btw, CONGRATULATIONS TO THE SECOND BATCH OF SENIORS IN OBSA! Special mention: Erika, Carla (?), Ayeth, and Carlos for being this batch's top honor students and the recipient of the leadership award (AKA the horse thingie haha). NAX. 4A, continuing the legacy of 4A Pioneers (ehem ehem)

Mwah mwah mwah. I miss all of you! Goodluck in college (and you'll realize how highschool requirements are nothing compared to what you are about to take. Ahaha) See you guys, soon!

Malin's debut was fun!!! I'm under age (at 17) and yet, I got inside the bar. Woohoo. I don't look like a 12 year old kid anyway-- plus the fact that I drank cocktails may have made the BOUNCERS think I'm no longer minor. Teehee

I'll be uploading the pictures in my multiply account in a few minutes.

http://kolehiyalablues.multiply.com

I decided to do some online quizzes. Some of the results are 70% true, some are really funny (it's up to you to guess which statements from the results are false haha):

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

Do You Even Know What a Blog Is?

You got 1/8 correct! What the heck are you doing at Blogthings?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Your Fashion Style is Girly

You dress to look beautiful and show off what you've got Dresses, skirts, heels... whatever it takes to turn heads You love feeling like a girl in any setting Even your workout clothes are cute and feminine!

"Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
- Lucas, One Tree Hill Season 3 

what does it mean when i blog twice in a day?
uhh...
THAT'S NOT GOOD.
it manifests boredom.
*laughter here*
either way
i will love the boring days to come
i need this break.

***

put your player on shuffle mode (in this case, my iTunes Library overloading with songs from all over).
pick your favorite lines from the first 15 songs that will be played.

1. promise- the getaway
And now the stars aren't out tonight
But, neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like good bye
These memories can't replace
These wishes I wish and Dreams I chase
Take this broken heart and make it right

2. the blower's daughter- damien rice
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

3. warning- incubus
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness...
...I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down

4. georgy porgy- eric benet and faith evans
It's not your situation
I just need contemplation over you
I'm not so systematic
It's just that I'm an addict for your love

5. rewind- stereophonics (one of the most meaningful songs ever written)
Dream and be
What you feel
Don't you compromise
What you wanna be
'Cause change is okay
What's the point in staying the same
Regrets, forget what's dead and gone
If you could rewind your time
Would you change your life?
If Jesus rode in on a camel today
With your cross on his shoulder
Time to take you away
Have you done all you wanted?
(kamusta naman 'yan? hindi naman halata na memorized ko diba? dinidibdib ko 'to eh. haha)

6. shadows like statues- matchbook romance
and i can still feel you as if you were in the room
where does our story end where does it start
i buried you along with my heart

7. pump it- black eyed peas
ladadidadadida on the stereo
let the stereos blow your mind...
(ahaha. you just gotta love fergie's part!)

8. heaven knows- rick price (this is weird. i can't believe this is still in my playlist. boo! brings back bittersweet memories. haha)
maybe my love will come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'coz heaven knows

9. waiting (save your life)- omnisoul
But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

10. mixtape- butch walker
but you gave me the best mixtape i have
even all the bad songs ain't so bad
i just wish there was so much more than that
about me and you

11. when the stars go blue- bethany joy lenz and tyler hilton
dancing where the stars go blue
dancing where the evening fell
dancing in my wooden shoes
in a wedding gown...

12. let me fall- bethany joy lenz
let me feel i don't care if i break down
let me fall even if i hit the ground
and if i cry a little, die a little
at least i know i lived
just a little...

13. hear you me- jimmy eat world
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.


14. shimmer- fuel
all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
away again


15. hemorrhage- fuel (top 1 on my playlist. looooovvvee the song. haha)
memories are just where you laid them
drag the waters ’till the depths give up their dead
what did you expect to find?
was there something you left behind?
don’t you remember anything I said when I said
don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
don’t fall away and leave love bleeding
in my hands, in my hands again
leave love bleeding
in my hands, in my hands
love lies bleeding

whew! this was tiring... but what can i say? music fills me in.

i think i did bad in my AJMA interview a while ago. the lack of marketing experience in my previous years is enough manifestation that i won't be a core head. nevertheless, nothing is wasted (i think?). summer, here i come! woohoo!!!

I SURVIVED FIRST YEAR COLLEGE. THERE'S STILL MUCH TO LEARN AND MUCH TO EXPERIENCE BUT FOUR YEARS HAS NOW TURNED TO THREE, AND 8 SEMS TURNED INTO 6. THE CHANGE IS LITTLE BUT STILL SIGNIFICANT.

Free as a bird *jump 1. jump 2. jump 3.* Yipee! In celebration of my freedom, I went to Shangrila Mall earlier to splurge splurge splurge. I have been prohibiting myself to buy things during the killer sem because I know I will not appreciate it as much-- with piles of papers to do and projects to slave my nights with, how can one even appreciate a new necklace? I'm sure I won't. And so... now that the time has come wherein every commodity bought can be appreciated by yours truly, I stormed to the nearest mall from my place

I shopped 'til I dropped-- literally! My feet hurt and my weak muscle-less arms gave up. I decided to stop by Powerbooks first. Apparently, my friend Mike has been calling me for more than 8 times (resulting to missed call alerts and 6 text messages greeting me as I recovered my phone from the dark bottom of my bag). I told Mike I was in Shangrila and 20 minutes after, he was there with me in Powerbooks. I was relieved he was there with me, at least somebody will bring my shopping bags and he won't say no *evil laugh here*. Thirty minutes more of staying in Powerbooks, we got bored and decided to stop by FIC but even before we headed out of the store, somebody wearing this familiar orange cap went inside Powerbooks... EEEKKK! YAEL YUZON!!! (I remember the orange cap he was wearing because it's the exact same cap he wore in the ORSEM night where I stood 6 feet away from him... hehe) And so I retreated. I discreetly walked backwards, trying to keep my cool and tugged Mike back to the store. Obviously, he knew nothing about Yael, Spongecola, or any OPM band for that matter (poor guy. He's missing half of his life) so when I asked him to come back inside, he has a big question mark in his face. Pssh. I didn't tell him the reason why immediately because I know something I will not like can happen so I remained quiet as I toured the small Powerbooks for another 30 minutes or so.

HOWEVER, this friend of mine, MIKE, kept on asking why we were still there. My eardrums has already given up on him and so I answered back:
Me: Si Yael. He's here. Ayun o with her girlfriend.
Him: Where? Where?
Me: Pssh. Alam mo Mike, this is hopeless. You don't know him to begin with so why bother? Basta let me stay for a bit. Sige na please.
Him: Oi. Oi. I know him kaya...
Me: Stop. Wait. He's...
Him: ... diba si Yael yung idol mo? Ang liit pala niya!
Me: ... coming to our side... *and I was shocked*

Yael looked at me, and then him, and then me again and smiled. Sheesh. I was sooo embarassed but I had to keep my cool for a second there. I gave a weak smirk (I am about to faint) and then stormed out of Powerbooks.

"MIIIKKKKEEEE!!!" was all I said. Seconds later, I was laughing to death. Mike was funny. He was innocent all the time. From the moment he said what he said until I stormed out of the store, he never had a clue how much it actually affected me. Owel. Kaya nga tayo magkaibigan diba Mike? Haha. It was embarrassing but... well... Yael gave me a smile. Haha. And just like what Iya said, "It's ok. At least you know Yael and you have an impenetrable link-- ATENEANS."

WHAT A DAY.